You have awoken me, my Spring Sun, from a cold and barren winter. My weathered branches are now colored by the vibrant palette of a heart in bloom. What of you, beauty? Will you keep my love as you have kept the smile on my face since the day we met? Or am I in … Continue reading Another Love Poem
Author: CaliStray
Follow me, and we can step through the shadowed forests of mental illness together. I struggle with Bi-Polar Disorder, Anxiety, and PTSD, likely triggered by an abusive and neglectful set of parents and some traumatic life events. Though I try to stay positive, I am healing through my writing and not every healthy moment looks pretty. I am honest, raw, and forthcoming with my issues.
What Was I?
What were you to me?Would you believeYou were everything? Did you see this coming?Holding me and pretendingWe'd wake up togetherIf we refused to let go... But we let goAnd now I don't knowWhat I was to you... What was I to you?A good excuse?Someone you could tell everything to... I saw this coming.Holding you, I … Continue reading What Was I?
The Cleansing – A WIP Fiction Concept
Where were you when the first one happened? I remember where I was. The sky was bright, sunny, and abnormally blue. My mother was inside, trying to push my brother out of the house for school. “You’re going to be late!” The tar-black clouds rolled in shortly after, while my brother and I were packing … Continue reading The Cleansing – A WIP Fiction Concept
On Memory – 2
I don’t remember the last time I watched the sunrise. At least, not from somewhere other than the I5 freeway. Was I with a loved one, or all alone? Did I plan on that memory lasting forever? I can’t imagine thinking I’d forget it as thoroughly as I have, much less planning to. Likely, I … Continue reading On Memory – 2
To Become a Perfect – Primer – WiP
Have you ever felt like every major decision you’ve ever made has been wrong? I don’t mean that you happen to do something with your life that doesn’t work out every once in a while, but that every decision that you have ever made ended badly for you. Do you know that you made these … Continue reading To Become a Perfect – Primer – WiP
Sunday Struggles…
A little goes a long, long way- A little thought that wakes my day That maybe when I’m feeling low, I’ll submit myself to letting go. Letting anger, sadness, fear Float away and disappear- Responding to some stimuli With barely but a blinking eye. But deep inside, there’s something “wrong” That fills me up with … Continue reading Sunday Struggles…
Left Behind.
I don’t remember what it was Not to have you around. Everyday, a dream- a Frozen, lost Fog filtered every thought. All I could sense was my own Broken heart. “Left behind”, those words Encompassed my being. ~*~*~ Why wasn’t she enough To keep you here, where you could love without the strain of … Continue reading Left Behind.
The Village on the Island – Part 1
Do you remember the stories of the light tower that signaled the return of sailors from the sea? Back then, the village only sent one ship out at a time, and the ship would be gone for anywhere from six to twelve months depending on the provisions they were sent with. Every man was expected … Continue reading The Village on the Island – Part 1
On “Unanswered” Prayers
Ashes drifted lazily, carrying a message to the heavens. It said: “Who needs your help now that the flames of hell have reaped another soul from the useless hope in my unheard prayers?” The tears of a child fell from the face of a man, who’s burning anguish was answered with rain. Lost in the … Continue reading On “Unanswered” Prayers
Still Trapped.
There is no way to cleanse you from my blood; the DNA that spreads through me, entangled in a history of you and us and insanity, is permanently tattooed on my life like the ink in my skin that reminds me, each day, to move on. I scrub myself red and raw, crying to empty … Continue reading Still Trapped.
