I don’t remember the last time I watched the sunrise. At least, not from somewhere other than the I5 freeway. Was I with a loved one, or all alone? Did I plan on that memory lasting forever? I can’t imagine thinking I’d forget it as thoroughly as I have, much less planning to. Likely, I … Continue reading On Memory – 2
Author: CaliStray
Follow me, and we can step through the shadowed forests of mental illness together. I struggle with Bi-Polar Disorder, Anxiety, and PTSD, likely triggered by an abusive and neglectful set of parents and some traumatic life events. Though I try to stay positive, I am healing through my writing and not every healthy moment looks pretty. I am honest, raw, and forthcoming with my issues.
To Become a Perfect – Primer – WiP
Have you ever felt like every major decision you’ve ever made has been wrong? I don’t mean that you happen to do something with your life that doesn’t work out every once in a while, but that every decision that you have ever made ended badly for you. Do you know that you made these … Continue reading To Become a Perfect – Primer – WiP
Sunday Struggles…
A little goes a long, long way- A little thought that wakes my day That maybe when I’m feeling low, I’ll submit myself to letting go. Letting anger, sadness, fear Float away and disappear- Responding to some stimuli With barely but a blinking eye. But deep inside, there’s something “wrong” That fills me up with … Continue reading Sunday Struggles…
Left Behind.
I don’t remember what it was Not to have you around. Everyday, a dream- a Frozen, lost Fog filtered every thought. All I could sense was my own Broken heart. “Left behind”, those words Encompassed my being. ~*~*~ Why wasn’t she enough To keep you here, where you could love without the strain of … Continue reading Left Behind.
The Village on the Island – Part 1
Do you remember the stories of the light tower that signaled the return of sailors from the sea? Back then, the village only sent one ship out at a time, and the ship would be gone for anywhere from six to twelve months depending on the provisions they were sent with. Every man was expected … Continue reading The Village on the Island – Part 1
On “Unanswered” Prayers
Ashes drifted lazily, carrying a message to the heavens. It said: “Who needs your help now that the flames of hell have reaped another soul from the useless hope in my unheard prayers?” The tears of a child fell from the face of a man, who’s burning anguish was answered with rain. Lost in the … Continue reading On “Unanswered” Prayers
Still Trapped.
There is no way to cleanse you from my blood; the DNA that spreads through me, entangled in a history of you and us and insanity, is permanently tattooed on my life like the ink in my skin that reminds me, each day, to move on. I scrub myself red and raw, crying to empty … Continue reading Still Trapped.
