I’m alone. Slow and steady, from my stomach, through my heart, through my throat and out of my eyes. Waves begging for something I don’t know how to give. Why are you back? Why are you bothering me again? I’ve eaten, I’ve slept, I’ve walked, I’ve talked, I’ve worked, I’ve cleaned, I’ve thought so deeply … Continue reading 4/20/2023
Tag: Life
Nothing particularly Important
Eyes sunken in, she rests her chin on her wrist, wondering what the purpose of life is. Is it finding joy in random toys, in video games and interested boys, praying a smile fills that void? Or is it reminiscing in random texts, time machines of things you've left, people, places, words, and thoughts- Memories … Continue reading Nothing particularly Important
My Strength
For years, I've frequently been told by my loved ones how strong they think I am. When this happens, I tend to clam up, shrug it off and insist that all I've ever done was what needed to be done. I'd never felt like I’d done anything to warrant such admiration and praise. Now, though, … Continue reading My Strength
Here for You
I let my guard down, to be replaced by another’s secure arms in an embrace that felt as natural as falling in love. In that moment, a star shot through the sky as if to say, “I’m here for you.” For the first time in a long time, I knew I was where I should … Continue reading Here for You
On Memory – 2
I don’t remember the last time I watched the sunrise. At least, not from somewhere other than the I5 freeway. Was I with a loved one, or all alone? Did I plan on that memory lasting forever? I can’t imagine thinking I’d forget it as thoroughly as I have, much less planning to. Likely, I … Continue reading On Memory – 2
The River
I thought I could live in the river; I thought I could survive on the tiny bits of algae it fed me from time to time, that I could tame it and morph its path and power toward a destination beneficial to myself. I thought I was the only one who could truly understand the … Continue reading The River
Waiting Up
They told me he’d come, if I’d only hold on. He’d fly to my window and we’d both be gone. The sun would rise on our forms in the sky, The girl who caught the hero’s eye. But I’m still alone, no sign of his cape. Is the “S” meant for “super”, or “Sorry I'm … Continue reading Waiting Up
2000 Miles Away – Venting
Was it that easy? You came in with a promise to be hers, always. How can you be hers From 2000 miles away? Insisting, you do, That she’ll be fine without you. You’re there through a call. But you can’t hold her over the phone while tears fall, When she feels alone, Asking when dad’s … Continue reading 2000 Miles Away – Venting
A Square Mile Town
The morning was clouded, sun still yawning and eager for his morning cup of coffee. Four of us ventured outside, aching for adventure and desperate for something more than a trailer too small for a family of 6. We didn’t skip or hold hands, just existed beside each other in a knowing way. The air … Continue reading A Square Mile Town
On Music and Nostalgia
Wrap me up in quarter notes, Breathing on a rest, Repeat the chorus two or three, make every verse your best. Memories coax my empty mind, Before swimming into view. Melodies dancing with my past, Old faces becoming new. I close my eyes and fall away, The music, my time machine. Taking me back to … Continue reading On Music and Nostalgia
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