Finding Peace
She bleeds diamonds, and the world knows it... They line up with their knives dressed up like roses. A kiss on the wrist; she's losing her mind, She lets them into her heart and they bleed her dry.With buckets loaded, they notice her cries and the sapphires tumbling down from her eyes. Greed consumes; they … Continue reading Beautiful
How overwhelming this feeling of loss returned That it crumbles walls fortified by years of rage and leaves only soft sand in its wake. What is this you’ve done? Why am I naked and bare in soul, craving your attention as I did the first day we met? With your laughter, I am small and … Continue reading Foundations
My nightmares start as something so sweet, Something so beautiful, something so free We were everything we'd ever need To reach anything that we could be... - - Then the snakes came out, and I couldn't see, The glass on my path, slicing up my feet. I danced for you while you laughed at me, … Continue reading Title TBD
At 17, I envisioned a future as a successful marine biologist, making a name for myself, surrounded by love, and achieving the kind of personal and professional milestones I'd been told all my life were far outside of my reach. Fast forward to almost 30, and I haven't done any of these things. Sure, I … Continue reading Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
Should I fall in love again, I beg it be with my best friend. Should it be with my best friend, I beg he love me to the end. Should he love me to the end, I beg our love is filled with peace. And should our love be filled with peace, I beg my … Continue reading Should I Fall in Love Again
I’m alone. Slow and steady, from my stomach, through my heart, through my throat and out of my eyes. Waves begging for something I don’t know how to give. Why are you back? Why are you bothering me again? I’ve eaten, I’ve slept, I’ve walked, I’ve talked, I’ve worked, I’ve cleaned, I’ve thought so deeply … Continue reading 4/20/2023
Trapped here, Between my heart and my gut, Caged by my ribs and a mind too open, I’m Fighting for a freedom I don’t really need. Your eyes plead, “Don’t leave…” But your arms are wrapped around another. “Soul mate,” or side dish? I’ve never known the difference. Not here, anyways. “You complete me.” Is … Continue reading The One with the Aliens
Can I just disappear? If I do, what happens to this confusion? I don’t know what I’m doing... I just know I don’t belong. It’s a problem I can’t solve. No matter what I do, I always feel alone.
Wrap me in your silky arms, ribbons of love around my wrists. I’ve found myself within your knots, Tied up, then down, then in your kiss. This noose that hangs around my throat, A final breath I'll never miss. Suffocating in our dreams, Consoled through death by wandering lips.
They promised a younger me that love would be sweet. It would hold me, late at night, and listen to me weep like a child calling for mom, or a wolf howling to pack. I’d wrap myself in my lover’s arms, safe to simply act. But that is not the case, for truth is never … Continue reading Doodling with Words #2
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