Finding Peace
For so long, I knew only a kind of seasonal love - one where stormy tempers coated our vibrant branches in ice, suffocating the leaves and petals yearning to thrive. My roots lay frozen, sealed in a harsh grip of cold, waiting for the sporadic warmth of spring to allow for a fleeting kiss. Each … Continue reading Welcome, Spring
In his kiss, I am bewitched. All of my thoughts escape me, and my mind is free to wander into a future where love is gentle and patient. Where he and I are only he and I, with little to no concern that another should, would, or could interrupt us at any moment. A world … Continue reading Made for Him
I've started over before- Many times; this time, though, I am ready. We open the door to my new, downtown apartment (void of furniture but filled with possibilities), and immediately start to plan. Ideas echo in the air as we run up and down the stairs, excited about every inch of empty space."This will be … Continue reading Coming Home
At 17, I envisioned a future as a successful marine biologist, making a name for myself, surrounded by love, and achieving the kind of personal and professional milestones I'd been told all my life were far outside of my reach. Fast forward to almost 30, and I haven't done any of these things. Sure, I … Continue reading Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
Should I fall in love again, I beg it be with my best friend. Should it be with my best friend, I beg he love me to the end. Should he love me to the end, I beg our love is filled with peace. And should our love be filled with peace, I beg my … Continue reading Should I Fall in Love Again
I’m alone. Slow and steady, from my stomach, through my heart, through my throat and out of my eyes. Waves begging for something I don’t know how to give. Why are you back? Why are you bothering me again? I’ve eaten, I’ve slept, I’ve walked, I’ve talked, I’ve worked, I’ve cleaned, I’ve thought so deeply … Continue reading 4/20/2023
Eyes sunken in, she rests her chin on her wrist, wondering what the purpose of life is. Is it finding joy in random toys, in video games and interested boys, praying a smile fills that void? Or is it reminiscing in random texts, time machines of things you've left, people, places, words, and thoughts- Memories … Continue reading Nothing particularly Important
The leaves fell slowly, at first. So slowly, it was hard to tell what was happening. I only knew they had fallen because every time I looked back, the branches were a little more barren. Over time, though, so many had come to litter the ground that they practically paved the walkway. Once strong, vibrant, … Continue reading Like Leaves Falling
For years, I've frequently been told by my loved ones how strong they think I am. When this happens, I tend to clam up, shrug it off and insist that all I've ever done was what needed to be done. I'd never felt like I’d done anything to warrant such admiration and praise. Now, though, … Continue reading My Strength
I let my guard down, to be replaced by another’s secure arms in an embrace that felt as natural as falling in love. In that moment, a star shot through the sky as if to say, “I’m here for you.” For the first time in a long time, I knew I was where I should … Continue reading Here for You
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