How do you forgive the unforgiveable?
How do you negotiate with your self-respect and pride so you can walk away from this with your heart, your dignity, and your willingness to live in tact?
How do you forgive the unforgivable, when they have no idea how much of yourself you’re giving up to do so?
How do you forgive the unforgivable, when you feel like it will cost you everything you’ve been fighting for in every other area of your life?
How do you move on when they’ve spent so much time convincing you that you’re worth something, only to show you what that “something” really is?
How do you look into their eyes and tell yourself that, this time, they’re being honest.
This time, they love you enough to respect you.
This time, they will think about you, and it’ll be enough.
This time, they understand what it will do to you.
This time, they’ll make the right choice…
Honestly, I don’t know the answer. I don’t know if it’s possible… I don’t know if it’s worth it, or if it’ll kill me. I don’t know what to do.
What I do know is, right now, I fucking hate you for making me ask- even if I’m only asking myself.
CaliStray 
With my best guess, your peace can be through knowing that other person has experienced some level of pain, whether before or after the connection between yourself and them was cut. Questioning them on their reasons does nothing more than revive both your own and the other’s regrets and misery.
And you can forgive from a distance. You do not even need to let them know you are moved on, enough to forgive, though not forget.
I find emotional scars are there to remind us of what we left behind, though also learned from. Not only that, though we cannot say the fault lied with them alone.
For example, to fall in love, I believe, means to resonate with another through a lot of emotions and aspects of yourself you have previously hid. Until love, you might have felt there was no need for this reveal. Though, what encompasses love is the unknown. We never know when it is right to reveal. With love, it is always unexpected, as we fall headfirst into it. Because of all this, we cannot place the pure blame on the other whenever it goes wrong. It hurts, because of love. We saw ourselves in them, so now we must learn from the whole experience to know how to behave when the heart loosens its guard, once again.
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