My nightmares start as something so sweet, Something so beautiful, something so free We were everything we'd ever need To reach anything that we could be... - - Then the snakes came out, and I couldn't see, The glass on my path, slicing up my feet. I danced for you while you laughed at me, … Continue reading Title TBD
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I still linger at the crossroads, Wishing I could follow... Did we have to go our separate ways? If I'd loved your laugh a little harder, Kissed your lips a little longer, Would we have gone our separate ways? I know where I am, but I'm lost all the same... Waiting for you to call … Continue reading No title…
My Midnight Prince
"Once upon a time", you might say,(If you feel the need to start a tale that way),There was a prince in a castle - far, far awaywho visited my dreams day after day.This prince.. he was charming - that much is true.But his heart, oh his heart, was always so blue.The darkness of his eyes, … Continue reading My Midnight Prince
Umi’s Nightmare
My 10+ year gaming character was going through some major stress. I'm storing the write-up here for safe keeping <3____ Umi wakes to a scorching sun threatening to set her skin on fire. With her throat too parched to speak, she stands and realizes she’s in the middle of a dune-riddled desert. The sand grabs … Continue reading Umi’s Nightmare
Coming Home
I've started over before- Many times; this time, though, I am ready. We open the door to my new, downtown apartment (void of furniture but filled with possibilities), and immediately start to plan. Ideas echo in the air as we run up and down the stairs, excited about every inch of empty space."This will be … Continue reading Coming Home
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I wish I could shed my skin and my mind. I wish I could reprogram the wires crossed in my brain with a special code that will make me the person I want others to see. They always say tomorrow is a new day, A new start, a new opportunity to do right.. But the … Continue reading No Title
Finally Free
Alone, but resolute, I stand tall, No longer enduring emotional squall. Gone are the pretense, finished are the games, No longer seeking logic amidst torturous flames. No more disdain for my weakest of nightsNo more targeted blame, no more endless fights. Unapologetically me, I claim liberty, No longer shackled by another's authority. Scars and charms, … Continue reading Finally Free
I let you be real, today.
By that, I mean I talked about the real us. Prompted by a vivid, painful dream, I released everything I could about all the reasons we fell in love, and how it happened. I talked about the support, and the connection. I talked about the strength, and how you pushed me to work on my … Continue reading I let you be real, today.
Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
At 17, I envisioned a future as a successful marine biologist, making a name for myself, surrounded by love, and achieving the kind of personal and professional milestones I'd been told all my life were far outside of my reach. Fast forward to almost 30, and I haven't done any of these things. Sure, I … Continue reading Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
Midnight Rambling
Is it a two-way street, or am I again driving the wrong way down an unpaved road to nowhere? Why must I seek meaning in mundane phrases and empty promises... Am I so desperate as to believe anything kind is meant to be sweet? Again, I'm licking up tar and calling it honey so I … Continue reading Midnight Rambling
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