"Once upon a time", you might say,(If you feel the need to start a tale that way),There was a prince in a castle - far, far awaywho visited my dreams day after day.This prince.. he was charming - that much is true.But his heart, oh his heart, was always so blue.The darkness of his eyes, … Continue reading My Midnight Prince
Umi’s Nightmare
My 10+ year gaming character was going through some major stress. I'm storing the write-up here for safe keeping <3____ Umi wakes to a scorching sun threatening to set her skin on fire. With her throat too parched to speak, she stands and realizes she’s in the middle of a dune-riddled desert. The sand grabs … Continue reading Umi’s Nightmare
Coming Home
I've started over before- Many times; this time, though, I am ready. We open the door to my new, downtown apartment (void of furniture but filled with possibilities), and immediately start to plan. Ideas echo in the air as we run up and down the stairs, excited about every inch of empty space."This will be … Continue reading Coming Home
No Title
I wish I could shed my skin and my mind. I wish I could reprogram the wires crossed in my brain with a special code that will make me the person I want others to see. They always say tomorrow is a new day, A new start, a new opportunity to do right.. But the … Continue reading No Title
Finally Free
Alone, but resolute, I stand tall, No longer enduring emotional squall. Gone are the pretense, finished are the games, No longer seeking logic amidst torturous flames. No more disdain for my weakest of nightsNo more targeted blame, no more endless fights. Unapologetically me, I claim liberty, No longer shackled by another's authority. Scars and charms, … Continue reading Finally Free
Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
At 17, I envisioned a future as a successful marine biologist, making a name for myself, surrounded by love, and achieving the kind of personal and professional milestones I'd been told all my life were far outside of my reach. Fast forward to almost 30, and I haven't done any of these things. Sure, I … Continue reading Reflections on Love, Burnout, and Seeking Fulfillment
Midnight Rambling
Is it a two-way street, or am I again driving the wrong way down an unpaved road to nowhere? Why must I seek meaning in mundane phrases and empty promises... Am I so desperate as to believe anything kind is meant to be sweet? Again, I'm licking up tar and calling it honey so I … Continue reading Midnight Rambling
Should I Fall in Love Again
Should I fall in love again, I beg it be with my best friend. Should it be with my best friend, I beg he love me to the end. Should he love me to the end, I beg our love is filled with peace. And should our love be filled with peace, I beg my … Continue reading Should I Fall in Love Again
Soulless
I exist, soulless and still at heart. My actions, though shallow, play their part In a world that's peacefully, calmingly dark;I breathe through a life devoid of our spark. Each moment of thought clear of your shapeIs A moment of ignorance, a chance to escape,A moment of triumph in my withdrawal from fate...A moment to … Continue reading Soulless
4/20/2023
I’m alone. Slow and steady, from my stomach, through my heart, through my throat and out of my eyes. Waves begging for something I don’t know how to give. Why are you back? Why are you bothering me again? I’ve eaten, I’ve slept, I’ve walked, I’ve talked, I’ve worked, I’ve cleaned, I’ve thought so deeply … Continue reading 4/20/2023
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